i want to hate you so bad, but really i am just sad for you. i know when you started lying to me and i know you still are. you're lying to yourself. you don't want to change and you never did... i always had a feeling about you but i put it aside because i felt that that's how love was.. people helped eachother. but you don't want help. you did. but now you don't. you're a fucking liar and i can't believe i was dumb enough to pretend you weren't. damn.

i can't drink

can't smoke

can't do drugs

because all of that is running.

it's never going to solve them. just prolong them.

i just deal with my problems head on

and right now. damn...

damn.

trust and faith

i'm putting more faith into my life. and more trust into the people around me. if i continue to hold back, then no one will get all of what i have to give, and i can't expect to get all of what other people have if i don't do the same.

life is looking up because i say so.

i check this shit

all the time and never update it. it's probably because i'm lazy.

freakin out much?

lately i've been freakin' out a lot. part of it probably has to do with me not smoking weed anymore, and part of it is just life. and how I am. noelle helps a lot by listening to me ramble about all of it, and for that, i appreciate her greatly. just working on this whole growing up thing. 

JOEMM

words/polaroids and easter eggs c/o: THEREALDEALNEAL

"'BETTER LATE THAN NEVER'... I take that to heart."-JB/CB

Joemm Blanche is someone that I met quite a while ago through our similar interests in sneakers. He is a perfectionist, a procrastinator, a hustler, a gentleman, a sneakerfreaker, a bicyclist, a schemer, an innovator, a collector, a goon, a businessman, a son, a good friend, a tennis player, a coach, a 'cedes driver, and above all things. AN ARTIST. Joemm is the kind of guy that you will be seeing a lot of in the future so get used to his unusual style, and mostly his unusual name. (You'll be seeing it on the tags of your clothes in the future.) 

Who are you and why should I care?

I'm Joemm, and I'm probably the only Joemm you'll probably ever meet, so that's why you should care.
What kind of name is Joemm?
Joemm is a nickname that, actually turned into my real name. It's short for Emmanuel Joseph, the "Jo" coming from Joseph and the "emm" coming from Emmanuel.
I bet you thought you were real clever on April Fool's day?
Yeah. I got a few people, you know. If you wanna explain it...
Yeah well you called me and told me that everything was cool and that you just wanted to see how things were going. And oh by the way you were gonna have a baby. I had to be real nice cause I didn't wanna be a dick if you were going to be having a baby, cause that sucks.
That was the reaction I was expecting, cause you know. Everybody gets that call once and a while. you know, your homeboy has a baby and you don't wanna be like "shut up".
Had me sayin' "oh congratulations on that shit dude" fersherr.
Good times. That definitely sealed the deal.
How old are you?
I just turned 24 this past March. I'm not too fond of that so let's just put 22 for now.
Birthplace and residency?
I was actually born in Anaheim, Disneyland city.
Residency?
Right now I am staying in Corona, CA. Crown town. Circle City.
Paper or plastic?
As much as I'm trying to go green, I like paper. I really do. I just don't like plastic.
Word on the street is you're a designer, what's that all about?
That's a good rumor, I guess. I don't like calling myself a designer. I don't like people coming up to me like "oh you do fashion design" or whatever "did you go to FIDM?" And it's kind of like.. "No." I look at my passion is art and designing is just one of the outlets.
You used to stuff with a brand called Soulful Commandoe, is that right?
Yes. Soulful is definitely a family. It was a cool project/ hobby that we developed into this amazing brand; this lifestyle company. We will be opening up our first store in downtown L.A.
Flagship?
Yes. At the end of the month. We've definitely come a long way. Soulful will forever be family to me.

"Blue collar kid trapped in a white collar body" 

Let's play word association game okay? You have to answer as quickly as possible. Take it as far as you want.
Streetwear.
Sucks. WHAT? hahaha hold on alright. that jumped out.
Okay. Streetwear.
All over
Hypebeast.
Streetwear.
Real sneakers
Vans.
Real life.
Nike.
Bullhorns.
Cows.
Cadillacs
Me
Disneyland
Love it
The next generation.
Us.
Tomorrow?
Today.
Finish this sentence. "Not only is Neal comin' in hot in '09 but..."
"But he's comin' in hot in oh ten" Ahaha oh'10. So good. So good.
Tell me about the line.
If you know me, you know that Chubby Boob has been a project of mine since before Soulful. When I joined Soulful I basically put that on hold. Finally coming out with it after a good 4 years, is definitely closure for me. But I don't like to look at it as closure, because it's basically just a beginning. It's been on hold for so long. I have a specific shirt that says "Better Late Than Never" and I really take that to heart. I really feel that I owe it to myself, and owe it to my friends, and owe it to the kids that have been following through the years, to launch this line. I'm really excited about it.
If I walk into a store, what do I look for if I'm trying to find it.
You wanna look for a big logo, that some perceive as boobs. It's definitely a shocking logo. The brand name itself is shocking. I love that shock value.
What inspired this brand?
This brand is definitely inspired by art, by my passion in art. Being comfortable in your own skin. Not necessarily following a trend, but being comfortable with yourself. Being confident, in wearing something like Chubby Boob.
What inspired this season?
This season was definitely inspired by the Year of the Cow. It's 2009, I was born in '85, so I'm a year of the cow. Cow's are known to work and I definitely want to work hard and hustle this year. This line is basically a culmination of all that work. Very simple designs, but well thought out.
Where can I get it?
Right now, I'm debating... I've got a handful of boutiques. I was going to sell to Active, and take the whole Active route, but after filing chapter 11 I'm not too sure if I'm going to go that route. If anything, it'd be for marketing purposes. You can count on VERSUS in Temecula.. other than that, I'm still debating. I definitely want to direct all online sales to our web store.
So when does it come out then? It doesn't sound like it's out.
We are working on the website right now and furthermore, the web store. We still have to shoot the lookbook and do the photoshoot. You can expect it mid-May in stores.
Beacoup buxx or ballin' on a budget.
Oh dude, ballin' on a budget, that's always been my motto. I've always been this blue collar kid trapped in a white collar body.
Any shoutouts?
Gotta shout out you, of course. Shout out to everybody that's supported Chubby and me, and has stuck by me for so long. You guys are definitely my motivation.
Any last words?
I'm really bad at last words...

WWW.CHUBBY-BOOB.COM

WWW.CHUBBY-BOOB.COM

WWW.CHUBBY-BOOB.COM

"Spit fungus that'll grow from a dung trip"

all i do is work. it's getting very tiresome. I've been making every effort to skate as much as I can and it is working fairly well. I was supposed to work at Crooks tomorrow (which would've been nice since I never get there anymore) but my boss from my other job said I had to come to some stupid meeting 

lame. lame. lame. lame. lame. 

I bought a clean book a few days ago. A book of cliches. It's nice. 

i'm tired. it's 3 or something and i just worked 10 hours. fuck it.

ROCK THE BELLS

so about a week ago I get a call from Joaquin...

oh did I mention Joaquin's the LUCKIEST PERSON I KNOW (having this innate skill to win contests that require no skill. pure random draw.) 

so yeah joaquin called me, and told me he won tickets to the ROCK THE BELLS launch party. 

>> >>fast forward. >> >>

IT RULED

*Nas and Damian Marley were ill. Saw Road to Zion performed. DAYUM. DAYUM. 

*Psycho Realm has an insane DJ. He wears a ski mask. It's sick. Kinda makes ya think; maybe he's got some badass scar across his whole face...... B Real came out on stage which was sick and pulled out like a fuckin QP for fun.

*Raekwon the Chef was a treat as usual. 

*Murs was super sick. Apparently before we got there he was selling girl scout cookies . The DJ was kinda fuckin up his set, playin the wrong tracks and whatnot. But it was no bigz cause he played LA so I was set.

*Tech N9ne.. well.. he was there.

*KRS1. Damn. Dude can seriously rock the mic on a level that current artists don't seem to get. So much passion on stage. Talkin' some real shit about the state of hip hop and how we can change it. He was throwing out CDs and managed to get one. 

SUPERNATURAL hosted the whole thing so well. Right when we got there, he freestyled 2 songs like.. at leeeeeeeast 4 minutes each. Like nothing. Twiddling his fuckin thumbs like.. doo doo doo doooooo doo. Better than people can write. About whatever people in the crowd were holding up. Including a pipe that he hit between bars And one with words people would say to him. 

At the end of the show, Supernat, KRS1, and Charlie Tuna from J5 freestyled together. Shit was super nuts. 

.DOPE AS FUCK.DOPE AS FUCK.DOPE AS FUCK.DOPE AS FUCK.

-gone.

soooooooooootired.

I'm supposed to be interviewing a friend of mine very soon about some very good times. haha as to not expose myself I have stayed as ambiguous as possible.

  You'll be into it. I'm sure. 

workworkworkworkworkworkworkworkwrwrkwekrkererwk

i'm about to start kickin some ass again. stay tuned. in the meantime... hmm . check this out

ERIK ELLINGTON

DEATHWISH SKATEBOARDS was celebrating it's one year anniversary at their warehouse in North Hollywood a couple weeks back and Ellington was gracious enough to sit down with me. It doesn't sound like much, but to the all seeing eye, protector of many, dad, graphics consult etc. that is Erik, it's amazing he even had time to sit. Definitely a gracious host as well as an amazing skateboarder. Erik has been stretched far this year with filming, tending to his, now, 2 children and wife, andstarting Deathwish skateboards and Brigada Eyewear! Bring him in with a standing ovation, please, Mr. Alaska himself.

Who are you? How old are you? And why should I care?
Erik Ellington. 31. I don't know why you should care.
You run a company we're all fairly familiar with. Deathwish. What's in the name?
Skateboarders have a Deathwish
What role do you feel you play in this family?
Well I guess I just try and make things happen
What does that mean?
Its pretty simple. From the day to day operations, to getting graphics done. Pretty much everything ya know. I kinda just help run things. I guess.
Jack of all trades?
Master of none. Definitely not skateboarding. ::laughs::
I got a pretty good program. I come in here Monday through Friday, pretty much, and I make a time where I skate. And I skate every day. I try and stay on my game.
Favorite place to travel?
That's a tough one. Japan's always sick. Brazils sick. Australia's sick. I like to travel to downtown Los Angeles too.
What did you do today?
I woke up this morning and made my son breakfast. I went to get a bunch of shit done on my teeth. I had all these numbing medications and shit. Then I came up here and tried to figure out what we were doing. All I pretty much do is assist people at doing what they already know how to do.
Morale?
I'm a morale supporter.
If you could only do one trick for the rest of your life what would it be?
I'd 360 flip everything in my sight
Favorite food?
Gumbo
From anywhere in particular?
Louisiana. Louisiana gumbo.
You get to put on a concert. You have to select 3 bands, living or dead, to headline. What 3 bands do you choose?
Guns N Roses of course. AC/DC has to fall in there somewhere. And then, I'd like, TRex to play. And then throw Muddy Waters in there somewhere
Where do they play?
Obviously at my house
Any last words?
Good luck

come together

"skateboarding's done everything, and nothing for me at the same time."

ELLINGTON interview asap. most likely tonight. forreal.

on the way out the door

work work work work work has a tendency to impede art. it's cool. I'm making time for it as soon as I can. Thanks to all my friends. You all rule. That is all. 

ELLINGTON interview up as soon as I can. 

long day well spent

"Success is liking who you are, liking what you do, and liking how you do it." -Maya Angelou

currently: waiting for my rice to cook and listening to A.D.L.I.B. feat Mos Def- A.D.L.I.B.

School went really well today, I had good times in both classes. I'm learning a lot. It's pretty cool. Hung out with Joaquin, Desmond, and Kyle in the Botanic Gardens. Super chill. Finished Blakes board. I call it "Park Shark". (Blake calls it Pool Shark.) You can call it what you will. Just don't call it after you already smoked the blunt. I'm psyched on it.

ANTWUAN "Big Kandy" DIXON

words, photos and easter eggs c/o: THEREALDEAL

"Fuck the po-lice"

The first time I met Antwuan was at the tradeshow (ASR) in San Diego about 2 years ago. He was 2 years younger and had maybe 2 tattoos. He's almost of age now and has more tattoos than a tribesman. An, honestly, nice guy and an amazing skateboarder, I was lucky enough to have him sit down with me at the Deathwish 1 year anniversary, and answer a couple of questions. Everyone show love to the underground king of Deathwish skateboards, Dr. Fakie Double Flip himself, Antwuan Dixon.

Who are you and why the fuck should I care?

My name's Antwuan Dixon cuh and you should care because you know I'm the illest motherfucker around. You already know the business. You know I hold shit down. You already know.
Squad up. Squad who?
Sin squad nigga that's what's up. First and foremost nigga, that's me, Sinner, Flip, Jigga, my nigga Shane. All my niggas. We separate the weak from the obsolete.
If you weren't here where would you be?
Probably at my house man, smoking blunts on my porch cuh. Fuckin wit my mama, cuz watching Shottas. You already know.
Shottas is a hell of a movie.
Oh yeah that's a blood clot movie OOOOOOH. ::laughs::
Out of all the places around the world that you've been, where's your favorite place to travel?
My favorite place to travel is Madrid, Spain.
Why?
I don't know, I went there and all the ladies thought I was a cute guy. They wrote "muy bonito" on all my fucking starbucks shit.
What were the last two artists you listened to?
I listened to my nigga Young Jeezy and muthafuckin' T.I.
I heard you got into a little bit of trouble? You alright now? Everything cool?
Yeah man I got into a little bit of trouble fucking out there in Florida man.
What happened?
Man I was chillin cuz, and these bitches came at me like "'ey 'twuan you wanna smoke" I'm like yeah lets go. then all of a sudden you know.. These bitches had all these blunts rolled, you kn'a mean and we was smoking' and this lady rolled up and knocked on the window. And then she knocked on it and looked at me and I just kept smoking, cuh. And then all of a sudden that bitch pulled out the motherfuckin' badge cuh. And I'm like "Shit." You know? I had a big ass muthafuckin zip lock bag, cause my nigga motha fuckin Wizard had like a QP and I bought his last ounce. So I had the whole muthafuckin zip lock bag so the shit was pokin' out my pocket. Cuh You know. And then a nigga just cashed his check. Then lenny rivas gave me a little fucking sin squad real quick just to get buck, just to pack my beat. And then all of a sudden, a nigga got cuffed. Bitch pulled my shit out, talkin she gon' seize my money. And I'm like "what the fuck you mean you gon' seize my money" she talkin' bout, "we gon' take it" ya know? I'm all cuffed up, sitton on the shit. So I get up, cuh, fucking grab my wallet off the hood of the car. and I hold onto it real good. They kept trying to rip it out from me and then this walks back and I kicked her in the face cuh, then this other nigga come up and I elbow him. Then I get tased by two taser guns and shit.
How'd that feel?
The shit hurt man. The niggas took me to jail and shit. Whatever. Life goes on.
Which of your tattoos is your favourite?
My favorite tattoo is muthafuckin' Freddy Krueger cause muthafuckin Freddy is bad, bitch.
What was your first tatoo?
My fucking initials. A.D. That's what's up.
If you could only do one trick for the rest of your life what trick?
Only do nollie muthafuckin heelflips. You already know the business.
When's the next time I'm gonna see some shit comin' out from Big 'Twuan?
You already know. We got like 11 and a hakf months. Go harder than motherfuckers. In there like swimwear. You already know the business.
Okay. Finish this sentence. "I go hard in the paint, Big Kandy does..."
What the fuck he wants to do when the fuck he wants to do it.
That's what's up. Any last words?
Yeah nigga, fuck the police. Smoke weed every muthafuckin' day.

"Life, I wonder, will it take me under?"

currently listening to: DJ WALKS freestyle fridays

"Money, money, money, on my mind, on my mental"

Wednesday, Thursday and Friday came and went quick as fuck. I've been working a lot in an attempt to secure the luxury of my habits. (1 and 2) between that and juggling school I didn't have time to finish up both DEATHWISH interviews for Friday. With that being said, the ANTWUAN DIXON interview will be up by the end of today. Most likely, this afternoon. ERIK ELLINGTON's interview is going to be put up by the end of next week. Stay tuned they're both amazing and I'm sure you'll all digggg. YA DIG?

A couple months back I was invited, by a friend, to go to Tampa Pro and I reluctantly declined. Though I don't regret not going (because I'm broke like eggs into omelettes) I'm sure it would have been a good time. I've been reading some twitter feeds from a few people I know out there and I can't wait to see the foooty. In other news, check out PJ Ladd's granite madness over at his own mini DC site 

awesome fuckin' weekend

currently listening to : Leave me alone pt. 2 - Cam'ron

"electric chair? I don't deserve the fun"

I had one awesome weekend. Took a LONG trip to North Hollywood only to end up at the DEATHWISH warehouse for the 1 year anniversary of the company. (On Friday the 13th. haha) Beers, blunts, skating, pros, and much love. That was on and poppin'. Hung out with some REAL OG's. More like... REAL PDs. Sat in traffic for like 4 fuckin hours which was succeeded by hanging out with one of the coolest ladies I know. My lerve. My lady. Saw Watchmen at the Riverside Plaza today, not a bad flick at all. I'd definitely say check it out. Off to a couple parties for the evening. DJWALKS is playing a party at Spruce so I'm going to catch that for a bit. Should be a grand ball.

oh and see those polaroids? the next two interviews are from two DEATHWISH pros. guess who?

NEXT FRIDAY. 

ANTWUAN DIXON and ERIK ELLINGTON

YAH' EARD MEH.

Another friday the 13th

so bomb.  polaroids came today. now i have picture taking abilities for my interviews. hawla at cho mutha fukkin boi. 

http://www.najle.com/idaft/

pretty fun.

DJ WALKS

 words, questions, and easter eggs c/o THEREALDEAL

disc jockey 

–noun

1. a person who conducts a radio broadcast consisting of recorded music, informal talk, commercial announcements, etc.

2. a person who selects, plays, and announces records at a discotheque

Close your eyes. You just finished walking down some dirt road to some party at some house you've never been to but your friend insists "it's gonna crack dude, shut the fuck up and wait." Reluctantly you walk into the house after walking through a yard littered by big wheels, blankets, other childrens toys and 2 dogs. (Who for some reason look menacing, yet lick EVERYTHING you're wearing) You get into the house and see 3 drunk girls walk by with half of nothing on. Things are picking up :) .haha. You reach the backyard and see everyone vibin' out to... THE PARAMOUNT PICTURES THEME SONG? What the fuck?

DJWALKS must be here.

Who are you and why should I care?

I go by the moniker DJ Walks and you should know me because if you don't know me already you are probably missing out.
Age: 22 years of age
Planet: Earth, definitely.
State: C-a-l-i-4-n-i-a
Side: Riverside
Do you have any formal training? GED, Do you go to school? Are you qualified to do anything?
Currently enrolled in my 3rd year at UCR, pursuing a psychology degree. I am basically qualified to operate a computer and television. I'm also qualified to watch children in a nursery.
You have a degree for that or something?
I have a certificate for early childhood studies
Why?
Because my whole degree revolves around child psychology.
What kind of equipment do you use?
I use a computer with live audio mixing equipment, virtual DJ, Audio Mulch, and a Gem Sounds cd turntable mixer
What sort of music do you DJ?
Mostly hop hop, buti also mix in soul music, rock music, reggae music.. And that's about it.
Top 5 songs to get a party cracking? (in no particular order)
1. Snoop Dogg -Whats My Name
2. DMX - Party Up
3. MOP Ante up remix
4. T.I.- Get Loose
5. Dr Dre feat. Snoop Dogg -The Next Episode
So I've listened to your music, and you seem to use a lot of TV and movie samples, (Such as samples from The Simpsons and The Office) as well as this idea bout the "gratuitous use of the siren". What's up with that?
Due to the fact that I really really hate when DJs mess up songs that you just start vibing to and there's some really annoying DJ break, you know- or some shit-
DJ drop?
Some DJ drop that you don't wanna hear in the middle of the song, I just get it out of the way so -i only do it at the beginning of the song. Its just my ode to being a cliche DJ, and having to have that cliche DJ drop in there.
Why the siren?
Honestly its because its the first effect that I had on my computer so I started using it.
What's up with all the TV and movie samples?
I, basically love TV. Tv/movies/music are probablythe biggest things in my life. Outside of, whatever. Those are the biggest interests in my entertainment values. I'll think about songs when I hear stuff in TV and its just a way to messwith my head when I DJ. I'll play a random clip and then whatever  song comes in my head- I'll play a random clip- like word association- and it'll go with my song.
Do you assume that an avid listener will understand that? Does it even matter?
It doesn't matter, but if they don't I hope that it would probably intrigue them to figure out what it means
You're playing a party this month. Where is it? And how can I get invited?
Ok well, due to unforseen circumstances I had to postpone that party until May, but it is still gonna be cracking. At my house. I believe... :: checks calendar:: May.. Yeah. The party will be crackin' on Saturday, May 9th.

So the party's postponed?
Yes.
Wack.

"I'm not out there to DJ a party to get a girl to start shakin' her ass."

Why DJing?

I have been into music for- I really started listening to music when I was 12. I used to play music, but I'm not good at making music. I tried to figure out what element of hip-hop I could do best because I wanted to take part in hip_hop as something other than just a listener. I'm good at listening to music so I figured, "What can I do with listening to music- I gotta be a DJ." That's my contribution to hip hop.

What DJs are you into these days?
Number 1 favorite DJ right now is DJ Skee. I also listen to DJ Z trip and DJ Exile for sure.
What's your style?
Style?
Like are you a Mike Carroll kickflip? or a Koston kickflip? Is this like a get-it-done.. or time-is-worth-the-wait? what's goin on here?
My style is an insight into my mind. My mind is all over the place all the time
Do you have ADD?
No, I do not have ADD. Well, I've never been diagnosed with ADD...
So what you're saying is you have ADD, and now you're a doctor?
It's my attempt at an insight into my mind. I try to take all of these abstract thoughts that I have with my music to try to make you understand my train of thought with my music.
Do you set up DJ sets that you run through at certain parties?
I've never had a DJ set setup before. All feel. All spur of the moment. I choose the song that I'm going to play next during the song that is currently playing
How do you feel about other DJs?
How do I feel about other DJs? They're awesome. I'd love to see any DJ perform. If I'm at a hip-hop show, and everyone's chillin', if there's a DJ spinning the show has already started for me.
So I heard there was another DJ Joaquin. You guys are brothers I hear. Is that like some sort of tag-team duo action?
Well, It all started out- ::laughs:: no not really. I've never met the guy, but I've probably been asked if that was me 3 or 4 times. He's a pretty good DJ. He's nothing like me though.. he does house/transe stuff.
Top 3 songs you've been requested and turned down:
1. Lil Mama- Lip Gloss
2. Soulja Boy- Yahh Trick Yahh (I told 'em I would play it but never really played it)
3. Any Kotton Mouth Kings, even though I do love weed.
So let's try this again. Who are you and why should I get to know you?
DJ Walks. You should get to know me because I think my DJing is different than other DJs I've heard. I'm not out there to DJ a party to get a girl to start shakin' her ass. I really want you to get lost in the music. I want to be a DJ you listen to when you're driving in your car bobbing your head to every track.
Final thought? Any shoutouts?
Ka$ino Gang. Check out their music as well as their music from P Haze. And the homey Neal. Not you, Neal. A much cooler Neal. My Jerry Springer Final thought of the day is "smoke weed everyday".

www.myspace.com/gwaks187

www.DJWALKS.blogspot.com