i want to hate you so bad, but really i am just sad for you. i know when you started lying to me and i know you still are. you're lying to yourself. you don't want to change and you never did... i always had a feeling about you but i put it aside because i felt that that's how love was.. people helped eachother. but you don't want help. you did. but now you don't. you're a fucking liar and i can't believe i was dumb enough to pretend you weren't. damn.

i can't drink

can't smoke

can't do drugs

because all of that is running.

it's never going to solve them. just prolong them.

i just deal with my problems head on

and right now. damn...

damn.